Vacation!

So today is my last day at work until Aug 17th because we leave Tues for vaca (kinda). On Weds/Thurs I have to work but the rest will pretty much be vacation :) This will be the baby's first plane ride which has me nervous. I'm hoping she doesn't scream and cry and make us the parents with "that" kid! So we are currently downloading everything we can on to our phones and ipad and nook to make her happy and entertained. We will be in Vegas on Tues-Thurs and then Fri morning we will leave to go to Chandler, AZ to see some of Ben's family. I'm pretty excited to see them - we haven't been out there since our honeymoon in 2008 so it will be good to see them again! Just nervous about how the baby will adjust to the time change.

It will be my first time in Vegas so I can't wait to see it. We are staying at the Cosmopolitan and my parents are staying at Harrahs. Ben does have to work also while we are out there but that's ok. We will still make the best of it. And I'm hoping that we have some time to do some fun stuff in Vegas still. Me and Ben are planning to take one night to ourselves and do a dinner.

Also, my mom's birthday is on Tuesday so we are going to have to find a way to celebrate that while we are there! :)

Just an update on my issues real quick - had another appt yesterday. She checked and she saw follicles growing which is kind of good. We will see what happens from here. I'm hoping that nothing really happens and that I'm not ovulating because that's the best scenario. If I am ovulating then we may have a problem. So I had blood work and the ultrasound yesterday and I will have another the day after we get back from vacation.

Baby Birthday & More

Well our little girl is officially 1. We had a wonderful time at her party. It turned out to be a pretty good day. Lots of family and friends came to visit! We were so glad for those that could be there for her special day. I just would love to know where the time went!

Work has been kind of eh for me lately. I've been extremely busy and there's been some issues with one of my co-workers. It has been a sticky situation and I just want things to go back to the way they used to be. But I have a feeling that won't be happening.

As far as my health issues, still no progress really. Had another doc appt this past Thursday and they did another water ultrasound.It was tricky but they were able to get in and do it. They said everything looks ok except for the "false path" that was created from my D&C back in August of last year. They think something to do with that may actually be stopping me from having my periods. They are going to watch me over the next week (I have another appt on Thurs) and see if I am ovulating at least. We will see what happens. Part of me hopes for some reason I didn't because they could always stimulate that but if I am ovulating but not having my period than they are not sure what is going on. Uggh such a mess. Over a year and no closer than I was a year ago to being back to normal. And the worst part is that the doc mentioned IUI if I was ovulating but not having the period (possibly from that false path) and when I brought it up to Ben, he said he didn't want another one right now. Crushed me. I really thought that was why we were going through all this right now was to have another one. And he thinks I'm not ready for another baby. But I know that I am. I always wanted my children close in age as well. And I would have loved to get pregnant this fall and then all of my maternity stuff would have been for the right seasons. I know that's not just it but I really just wanted another baby. I'm just so confused and hurt and angry and wondering why me? But then again I look at my perfect daughter and I know I have everything but I guess I'm being selfish....agghhh so hard to explain....