Bust

Well I think this cycle was a bust. Started spotting yesterday. This stinks. Oh well, I guess it's just the first cycle. I was just hoping with the investment in the fertility monitor and the BBT that it might happen. Part of me doesn't think it will happen naturally anyways because of my issues. We will see...on to next month though!

I'm so excited for Thanksgiving next week. I am only working Tues/Weds since I'm always off on Monday's. And then we are closed Thurs/Fri. I am going Black Friday shopping with my mom also so I'm super excited for that! I do have to go to Best Buy at midnight but then nothing else opens until 5 so I'm not sure if I will head back home and sleep a few hours or if I will just wait around for the others stores to open. Still trying to decide. We are doing Thanksgiving at Ben's mom's new house. This year the day Ben's dad passed falls on Thanksgiving so it's going to be a rough one :( The year he passed away it was actually on Thanksgiving too so we always have a rough time around now. I think the last two years it has made me even more upset because he isn't here to see our precious little girl who he would have just ADORED. I just know it. But I know he's watching over us and he sees her and how wonderful she is.

Work is kind of crazy right now, lots to get done with our year end stuff. I'm still hoping for my raise/promotion to go through come Feb. I REALLY hope it does. There is a staff accountant position open right now that I had been considering applying for but it would mean losing my 4-10 hr days which I don't think I'm ready to do just yet. And I wouldn't get overtime. It would be considered a promotion and I might get a slight pay increase form where I am at now but I think what I might be getting in Feb for my current position would be more. So I think I am going to stick out my current role for now. Plus I get to travel a bit during the year which is nice and I just would miss everyone I work with.

His ticker keeps on tickin'

So Ben had his heart surgery on Thursday. We got to our children's hospital at around 7:30 am and registered. Then we headed to the pre-surgery waiting area. Ben changed and we were only there around 15 mins and they took him back to start getting his stats. We saw the doc and the anesthesiologist then before I knew it they were sending me to the waiting room. Very different process from an adult hospital. I didn't know until Thurs morning that the surgery could be up to 8 hours. I was really surprised by that because no one had mentioned that sooner and his last one was about 3 hours and they said they said ti would only take 3-4 hours. To hear this one was going to be 8 hours was a shock. But good thing they prepared us because it ended up lasting 6 hours. There was about 2 hours that were kind of nerve wracking because they weren't sure that they were going to be able to get to the area that was causing the issue in his heart. Luckily they did finally get to it. We found out that he does have a hole in his heart which was one of the ways that they tried to get to the area but were unsuccessful. The hole is not a big deal and 10% of adults have them. We did find out though they had to change his EKG in order to get this SVT to stop. Not sure what that means - I'm assuming that means his heart beat pattern? Anyways they let us back in to recovery and he was really out of it from the anesthesia. He was really anxious and irritated though when I saw him even though he was really in and out. Then by the time we got upstairs he was pretty much out of it but he was still getting nauseous from the meds. So we did end up getting him so food around 7 pm and he did eat some of it. But then he started feeling nauseous again and also some tightness in his chest. His oxygen levels also were getting low (only around 86%) so they put him back on oxygen for the night. After that I did come home to the baby for the night. Then i went back the next morning and they took him for his final testing. We got to leave around 1 pm. Got home and got settled in and he has just been resting since! The tightness in his chest is back and I did call the doc and he thinks it's related to being in the anesthesia so long. So we are just keeping an eye on him!

As far as a update on our trying for #2 - we will see what happens. I did end up getting a peak reading 2 days in a row on the monitor and then high the next day. So shortly after Thanksgiving we should know something.... : ). I'm not counting on it this time around because it's only my second real cycle in 2 years and things may still be out of whack. More to come though!

Unexpected

So I have been doing my monitor every morning (well except for yesterday morning) but when I did mine this morning it came up as peak fertility? That was unexpected! Not sure what's going on with my cycles because my last two have been pretty long (42 days) and so I was planning on getting a positive until mid next week. So it's like 10 days early...so I will test again in the morning and make sure. I did see a slight increase in my temp but not crazy. And didn't really see much of a drop but I'm new to the whole temping thing so I don't know what's within range for me and whats not. We will see what happens! Time to jump my husband though I guess...;-)

Charting, Temping and Testing Oh My!

So now that I have gotten somewhat of an idea of my cycles I have decided to jump in full force and start temping and charting for our journey to TTC #2. I also purchased a digital fertility monitor to use off of a friend. Got a good deal compared to everything else I can find online. I didn't get it until after I started my cycle so it's a few days off but that's ok because I am running on 6 week cycles anyways. So today is actually CD14 but the monitor says cycle day 6 so this morning was my first day of POAS (according to the directions it will have me start testing at day 6). After using another one because I thought the first didn't work (turns out it was user error! :/) I got a low fertility reading. Figured as much.With a 6 week cycle I'm not due to ovulate for another 2 weeks so that's a lot of tests I will have to use this round but I should be able to time things better next cycle and hopefully not use as many tests. I am hoping that maybe it becomes smarter and doesn't have me test until later since my cycles are longer??? If not, I will just wait longer to restart the monitor - maybe not until CD 21. I am a bit overwhelmed by all of it but after 9 months of not being able to do anything about TTC I am all in to get it going as quick as possible. I hope we don't have a long road ahead. I think given our history the doc would be willing to jump strait to IUI but I want to avoid any expense associated with that if possible. So we will try a bit on our own and I probably won't consider that until Tricia turns 2. So here's to being very hopeful that things work out!

Still pretty nervous about Ben's surgery next week even though we have kind of been through it once already. He will have to stay overnight so that is a bit of a change. I may see if my sister and mom can take the baby next Friday night and keep her so we can get some rest. I'm sure Ben won't get much sleep while he is in the hospital so I know he will need it when he gets home.