Down Day

Well I can honestly say this whole week has just been a down week for me.

Let's start with the job situation. I honestly like my job that I currently do - for the most part. I do feel that I kind of get the "extras" everything everyone else doesn't want to do - and being the Unit Admin Coordinator (yeah yeah it's jsut a fancy name for Admin Assistant!) I get most of that slack. There are a few things that I feel fall out of my job description that I kind of helped out once and everyone assumes that since I helped out once I become the keeper of that item. Usually I don't mind but it gets to me sometimes that my time seems expendable to them. I know that is some of my job, to help out where needed, but it gets really frustrating at times. But I do it with a smile on my face and gladly accept because I know I am helping them out because I am hoping that wouldn't ask unless they really didn't have the time - which I know some of them don't. Now I did apply for another job in my dept, I feel like I could do a good job at it because it was a position created at the beginning of 2008 and some of the duties that I did got transferred to the person they hired (and some that were supposed to never did because she wasn't there long enough). I also feel like it's time for me to take a step up, not saying that it would be a step up pay wise but the UAC postion is always a starting point within the company. I figure it would be a good way to build my knowledge in other areas of our business.

So I applied...and I haven't heard anything really since. I did ask the hiring manager about the interviews being set up and she told me this week. I do believe I should be given a shot but I know some else has interviewed for this position and yet nothing has been set up for me. And I keep asking myself why and I'm full of doubt...is it because they don't need to interview me because they know my skills because they work with me already? Is it that they feel this other person is more qualified and don't think they need to interview anyone else? I am hoping for the first but not really quite sure since I haven't heard it mentioned nor do I know our company policy on that sort of thing. I don't know what to think at this point and I really am not sure that I will get it. I mean if they wanted me wouldn't they set me up for an interview around the same time as the other person so they can compare? I just have no answers and that's more frustrating then anything. I would just love to make the move to another position and be away from my boss. I feel like he can be so negative sometimes and I hardly ever feel positive about the work that I do for him. There are times but very few and far between. That is no means why I applied for the job but I just feel that there are MANY positives for me to make the move to this other position. I'm sure I would still be working with my boss because there are things that with my accounting background I'm sure I will still handle but I'm ok with that.

As for everything else, well I'm kinda consumed by the above issue :) Money sucks in general (what's new) and I am all banged up between mosquito bites, some kind of unknown bite on my finger that hurts like a mother trucker, and a charley horse in my leg last night that has my leg killing me. I'm just falling apart! I've really tried to start eating better - my biggest issue...portion control. Let's just say I haven't been doing much of a good job at it still but I'm trying. I wanted to go walking around the neighborhood tonight but with the previously mentioned charley horse issue and a very uninspiring large hill outside of my house I am not particularly up for it tonight. I want to start walking though, but maybe not up the hill. Last time I walked up that thing I had an asthma attack, just wonderful! So yet another thing for me to work on!