Baby Birthday & More

Well our little girl is officially 1. We had a wonderful time at her party. It turned out to be a pretty good day. Lots of family and friends came to visit! We were so glad for those that could be there for her special day. I just would love to know where the time went!

Work has been kind of eh for me lately. I've been extremely busy and there's been some issues with one of my co-workers. It has been a sticky situation and I just want things to go back to the way they used to be. But I have a feeling that won't be happening.

As far as my health issues, still no progress really. Had another doc appt this past Thursday and they did another water ultrasound.It was tricky but they were able to get in and do it. They said everything looks ok except for the "false path" that was created from my D&C back in August of last year. They think something to do with that may actually be stopping me from having my periods. They are going to watch me over the next week (I have another appt on Thurs) and see if I am ovulating at least. We will see what happens. Part of me hopes for some reason I didn't because they could always stimulate that but if I am ovulating but not having my period than they are not sure what is going on. Uggh such a mess. Over a year and no closer than I was a year ago to being back to normal. And the worst part is that the doc mentioned IUI if I was ovulating but not having the period (possibly from that false path) and when I brought it up to Ben, he said he didn't want another one right now. Crushed me. I really thought that was why we were going through all this right now was to have another one. And he thinks I'm not ready for another baby. But I know that I am. I always wanted my children close in age as well. And I would have loved to get pregnant this fall and then all of my maternity stuff would have been for the right seasons. I know that's not just it but I really just wanted another baby. I'm just so confused and hurt and angry and wondering why me? But then again I look at my perfect daughter and I know I have everything but I guess I'm being selfish....agghhh so hard to explain....

Wow....

Wow...I just can't believe my baby girl will be 1 tomorrow. I'm not sure where the time has gone. She has changed so much in this last year. She is such a great baby and I am so glad to have her!! She is truly my world and I don't know what I would do without her.

She has been a bit cranky the last few days. Not sure if it's her tummy bothering her from some new foods or if it's the two bottom teeth she is getting. That's right - finally she is getting her two bottom teeth in! So like I said, a bit  cranky but still my wonderful little girl! I hope she gets over it by Sat for her party or at least they keep her distracted enough so she doesn't get cranky.

Like I said her party is on Saturday and we are getting excited! I took off tomorrow for her birthday and to get ready for the party. We are taking her for her 1 year pics tomorrow at 2 and then mostly just finishing up cleaning and stuff for her party. I think my mom is taking a half day tomorrow just so we can get whatever finishing things done we need to get done.

I have been having breakdowns since last week though about her being one. Considering this could realistically be our only child I just want time to slow down so I can enjoy it more. And I wish I hadn't been so sick after I had her and the two surgeries so I could have enjoyed her that small. It seems like yesterday and forever ago at the same time. But I know she has to grow up so I'm just trying to enjoy every minute of it.

This will probably be my last post until after the party!!

HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY TO MY BABY GIRL! MOMMA LOVES YOU MORE THAN WORDS COULD EVER SAY!

Happy Father's Day!

Happy Father's Day to my daddy and my wonderful husband and my stepdad! And also to all the other dads out there :)


Just a quick update on me - my period has not come yet. I'm beyond stressed and upset - so much so that I have broken out in hives on my face. :( I had the symptoms on Tues/Weds and thought it was going to come but it never did. Which has me extremely concerned. I'm wondering if the scar tissue came back. I'm dreading having to call the doc on Tues to tell her. Going to have to go back in and find out what's going. This was not how I imagined this going. I thought the surgery working would be the end of all of this. I guess that's just not my luck. I'm so upset right now. I just don't know what to think....

Updates

Well just a few things since ym last post - I really do need to get on here more often!

I had my follow up appointment from the surgery. Didn't go as well as planned - she wasn't as optimistic as I thought she would be considering the surgery worked and went as well as it did. She presribed me some progesterone pills to take for last week of my estadiol pills. She said I am to take the last two pills together and stop them both on the same day. That should trigger my period within the next 10 days. So yesterday was the last day of pills. Hoping and praying the next 10 days that my period starts. I'm nervous and scared. If it doesn't work, that means something is still wrong. If it does work then I have to call anyways and find out what the next steps are. Not sure what else there could be. But I am super anxious to start trying for number 2. Fairly certain it won't be as easy as number 1 was.

Baby girl is now 11 months! Gosh where did the last year go? Between my health problems and work and everything else I just can't believe in less than a month she will be a year. I really need to get her party invites in the mail and start making serious plans and buying things for the party. So this week that is my plan! I have started the video montage for us to play on the TV as a loop throughout the party.

I haven't heard anything really from my insurance company regarding the accident. And I haven't heard from his either. I really thought things would move quicker considering nothing was contested. I did get a letter in the mail yesterday stating that my insurance company was going after his now for the money that was owed. I might call them tomorrow and find out how long this could be. The letter said up to a year but I highly doubt that considering there was no contention on what happened. We will see. Another thing to stress about since we had plans for any money we received and now all those plans are basically on hold (like painting our house which we wanted done before Grace's first birthday).

Work is going ok - stressed about some things there like the fact that I still haven't gotten my raise. I am due it and I'm tired of waiting. Thinking of pursuing other jobs but we will see.

Beautiful weekend ahead!

Well a quick update on me - I'm doing good. Still recovering from the surgery but feeling well! I have a follow up appointment next Fri so I will probably know more details of the surgery and information after that. I'm just so happy now that everything is ok. This has been such a big burden on me lately that I have not been myself.

Tomorrow and Saturday are supposed to be beautiful. I'm thinking about taking 1/2 day from work tomorrow just so I can enjoy it and spend some time with the baby before I leave. We have a bunch of stuff we need to do in the yard that I want to get started on this weekend with it being nice. So we will probably be mulching and weeding and trimming all weekend. But I will love being outside again without all this rain we have had!

I am going to Nashville for work on Sunday morning and I come home Weds afternoon around 1:30. It should be a good trip. I was in Nashville last year for work and it was under water so it will be nice to be able ot actually see some of Nashville. I get in early on Sunday and there is nothing until Sunday night for the show so I am going to do some sight seeing most of the afternoon I think. Can't wait!

Baby girl is doing so good! She has now learned how to wave hi back to people (just started that yesterday). About 2 weeks ago she said her first real word - dada. She also says hi sometimes too now. It's just adorable. I'm so in love with her cuteness it's not even funny. I can't believe that in 2 short months she will be 1! Once I get back from my trip it's time to start planning her party! We are just going to do something at the house with family and friends. A cookout probably - hopefully it's nice. We are going to get the house in order just in case it's not so people can be upstairs or downstairs if it's not nice out. I think it will be a pink and black theme because what princess doesn't love pink and black!

Update from Surgery

So my surgery was yesterday. What a crazy day! My mom showed up a few mins late so we were hightailing it to the wurgery center. On my way there I got a call from my doc office that I was supposed to be there for the pre-op consult. I had no idea about it though! Thank goodness it was in the same building so I ran up there first real quick to have the consult. I pretty much knew what was going on already so they just had me sign the form and I did talk to the doc real quick. I went back down to the first floor and checked in for my surgery. They came out and got me and took me back. Had me change and do my IV.Then Ben came back and sat with me until they took me in to surgery. I was back in the surgery room for about 15 mins before they put me out. When I woke up I was in the post surgery area. I vaguely remember someone telling me that everything was ok. But at the time I had no idea what that meant. I tend to be pretty emotional when I wake up out of anesthesia. Then I could have swore I heard them saying something about me coming back for laproscopy and something else. So I was a wreck. They were trying to reach Ben, come to find out he had came home. I gave them his number and they finally called him and he headed on his way back up. Then my doctor came in and she told me that everything went great! They must have been talkin about someone else when I overheard them earlier!! They removed the debris (which wasn't scar tissue - it was ) and there was one 'bump' up farther in my uterus they removed as well but everything is fine. I could not be more relieved. I started bawling when she told me she was able to get everything out. I guess it took about 50 mins for the surgery. When I came out I was tacacardic which is why they told Ben I would be in recovery. I can honestly say things could not have gone any better!!! I'm so happy right now. I have to be on estrogen pills for the next month just to help my uterus heal but then we should be fine.:) I'm thrilled right now. I'm not feeling too bad today. I still hurt a bit and some cramps and my had hurts where my IV was but not feelin to bad.

Today is kind of a sad day for me though...I was supposed to be in a wedding today with some friends we had a following out with :( It makes me sad to not be there and see it.

Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to all you mother's out there!

My first Mother's Day this year was just wonderful. Baby slept through the night last night and slept until 7:30 :)  Then we got up and hubby gave me his present from him and the baby. They got me a Nook Color. I'm so excited - I love it! I used my mom's on a trip last week for work to Florida and I was in love. She just had the regular one - hubby decided to go with the color one because it is better rated.

Then we went to lunch at 2 pm with my parents, his mom and her b/f and us at Piatto Novo at the Sheraton Suites in Cuyahoga Falls. It was a brunch and it was REALLY good. Baby was starting to get a bit tired though so she was a bit fussy and very hungry for some reason. Ben's mom got me a tank, a willow tree figurine, and a gift card to coldstone yummmm. After we left there we stopped at Best Buy and picked up a B&N gift card for me to use with my Nook (he got at $25 gift card with the purchase of the Nook to Best Buy so I used it to get the B&N gift card). Finally it was off to home and I laid down for a nap for a bit. It was nice and relaxing and baby slept the whole time too. I think hubby even took a nap! So all in all a wonderful first Mother's Day!

I also want to say a special Happy 10 month birthday to my little girl! I love her so much. I can't believe she will be 1 in 2 months...I'm already a wreck thinking about it!

I also am having surgery on Friday :( I'm so nervous and not ready at all for the outcome. I keep praying that everything goes ok but I'm just not sure. I have been really struggling with it recently and while no one really knows about what's going on except a few close people I'm sure it shows that something isn't right. I've just had too much on my mind. It's hard to think at 25 I won't be able to have more children - it's devastating to me. I wanted at least 1 maybe 2 more. Although Ben joked with me the other day that he would pay a million dollars to keep me happy if we have to pursue some other options. We will see. I'm holding out hope that this surgery will work and the doctors will be able to do what they need to. I've been praying a lot about it and just hoping that God will give me a miracle here.

I went to Orlando last week for my first tradeshow of the year and it was also my first time away from the baby. That was sooo hard but I was sooo glad when I came back home. I leave again on May 22nd to go to Nashville for another show. Then I don't think I travel again until August to Las Vegas for another one. So work has been pretty busy and crazy but it's at least keeping me preoccupied from *other* things on my mind. And I love being out with my field sellers and seeing them.

Baby has a doctors appt tomorrow - she has a diaper rash that we just haven't been able to get rid of! Hoping the doctor can find something to fix her right up tomorrow! I'm also in my last week of physical therapy from my accident. I'm doing much better, but I"m still having pains here and there. I'm glad I finally got my car back this past Weds after over 6 weeks of not having it. I still have to take it back though because they put some one else's wiper arms/blades on our car. I stopped there Sat but the guy we were dealin with wasn't there and no one else knew anything about it?? I was so mad - how could you not tell someone about that considering they told us to stop in anytime and they would fix it. Plus something is wrong with the balance on the tires. Once you get up to 60 or so on the highway it gets loud in the car and there is a vibration through the whole thing. It sucks!

Well I think thats all for now with the updates. I am going to really try to update more often so it doesn't get to be so much to update on!

9 mo Well Baby

Ahh where does the time go!? My little princess is 9 months old (back on April 8th that is) and she had her 9 mo visit to the doc on Monday. She weighs 18 lbs and 3 oz (34%) and is 27 3/4 in long (51%). She is just too cute for her own good

• She is crawling like crazy and she is FAST
• She loves to pull herself up on anything and everything!
• She loves to play with her toys
• She still sleeps with her mobile on at night and she is still using her binkie
• She is on stage 3 foods now - just started those about 2 weeks ago
• She likes yogurt melts from gerber. We have also tried puffs but she doesn't let them dissolve long enough so she ends up swallowing them and it's a bit hard for her
• She still loves the puppy and kitty
• She opens her mouth to give you kisses (she has been doing this for a while now)

I think that's about all. She is just our world and I couldn't love her any more!

Things have been crazy other wise. Ben is working hard at his new job. I've been busy at work also! I'm traveling a lot in May (1st and last week) and then I have surgery May 13th for my other problems I am having. I'm just praying this works. I really want to have more children and this would be pretty devastating if it didn't work. :( So I just keep on praying!!

We are having Easter dinner at our house on Sunday and I'm excited to have everyone over. My parents are coming, my sister and brother in law and possibly his son, Ben's mom and her boyfriend and  then Ben's grandpa probably as well. I'm going to be making a big feast and can't wait to have everyone there for baby's first Easter!

Car Accident

So on Tuesday (3/22) I got in to an accident as I was leaving work. It was not my fault though but so scary. I was leaving work and there a side road that runs from our parking deck and it takes you out on to a main road (S Main St). Just after the road merges with the main road there is a business (United Disability Services). Well someone who had never been in the area was trying to turn in to that business and ran right in to me and then I went in to a light pool. I was so scared. Thank god that baby was not in the car and I had my seatbelt on. The other guy was ok too. I had no idea what was going on. My air bag deployed so I saw smoke after that went off and I thought my car was on fire! So i jumped out. Luckily I wasn't seriously hurt either. I did go to the ER after to get checked out. My hand was bothering me and still is. And I am having some back pain and some pain in my hips. I have a huge bruise on my knee. And ever since the accident I have been getting a lot of headaches and dizziness/lightheadedness. Of course Ben was out of town 4 1/2 hours away :( He doesn't want to leave again. Just really scary. We are not sure about our car - we have talked to the body shop and they are already estimating the damage at around $12,000. At that rate I doubt they will fix it, they will probably total it out. I'm not sure that I will be ok with that. I would rather they would fix it. I love that car :*( I've been in some pain ever since the accident. I do have an appointment with my doctor on Monday. We will see what they say. I have a rental for now - it's a 2010 Dodge Journey. It has to go back though because there is no atenna so we barely get any stations. We tried to get something today but they said everything was out pretty much until Monday. So probably after my appointment I will head there to try and get something else.

Baby is doing very well though! We had another swim lesson today and Ben got in the water with us today too since I haven't been doing well with holding the baby. I get a lot of pressure in my back if I am holding her for any longer than a minute. She is enjoying every minute of her lessons though! She is eating stage 2 foods right now. She is still mostly army crawling. She gets up on her knees every once in a while but she doesn't stay there. She is standing quite a bit and can stand for a while against something if she is holding on. She also pulled herself up for the first time on Weds. We lowered her crib this week since we know she can pull herself up now. I'm not sure how she is liking being that low but I don't think she really notices it all that much.

In other health news for me, I am having some issues with my female parts. I have been through a few procedures and they have been unsuccessful so far. It's a long story but basically I have to have a surgery some time in april to try and remove some scar tissue. At this point they are not sure if I will be able to have more kids. I'm pretty devestated over that and hoping that this surgery goes well and they can get things better enough for me to have another one. We don't want Tricia to be an only child.

I think that's all for my updates for right now!

Baby Food and Some Updates

A few weeks ago I decided to try making my own baby food. I went to the store and bought some fresh green beans, carrots, pears, peaches and apples.

I messed the peaches up but the rest turned out fairly well! I put them in my ice cube trays, froze them, and popped them in to a freezer bag. Here is what I got:

Pears - cost $2.82, 14 servings, .20 per serving
Apples - cost $2.44, 9 servings, .27 per serving
Grean beans - cost $2.99, 12 servings, .25 per serving
Carrots - cost $1.19, 14 servings, .09 per serving

Maybe its just a bad time of the year to be doing this but I thought the cost would be more in teh range of what I got for the carrots. Not sure what happened. But I was happy to do it. Not sure if I will be doing anymore batches though. Baby is on to second foods now and that involves mixing a lot of foods and stuff. It seems like someone always has the Gerber two pack tubs on sale for $1. So I might just go with those.

Baby is doing very well though! Getting so big. She is in 6- 9 month clothing right now. Mostly for length than anything. She has the tiniest feet I've ever seen though. I feel like they haven't grown at all since she was 3 mo old! They are so little, compared to other babies around her age. I got some sandals that are so cute that are 6-12 mo and she can't even close to fit in them!

We start swim lessons at the YMCA on Saturday. It's every Sat for 7 weeks from 9-9:30 am. I'm ready to see her in her two cute little bathing suits. I will have to be sure to come back and post some pics of it. There is a girl here at work that is signed up with her son too so I'm excited to have someone in the class with me. A little nervous though because one I don't want to be in a bathing suit but two the class is for up to 36 months. I know there are 4 other people in the class besides us two so I'm hoping they are babies still like our little ones. I can't imagine a 3 year old doing the same things as an 8 month old. We will just have to see!

Ben's new job is going ok. It's really hard having him out of town all week. The weekends are nice to spend together but I still feel like I get no break most of the time. He is always running around and leaving the house to do something so then I have the baby still. I feel like screaming at him that weekends are supposed to be my break from doing it all week. Oh well. I love her to pieces but we all need a break once in a while.

My job is going ok. I was hoping for a promotion but didn't get one. Although PLENTY of other people did. Including 3 people in my department. I guess it had to do with who was going to make the least "noise" about not getting theirs and they said because I got one last year. Well last year was just to bring me where I should be, not because of a promotion. So I asked if they would give me my title change since they say my salary is in the range already and I'm really doing the job already. It's been a couple weeks and they still haven't told me. I'm not happy about it at all. I want to bug my boss more about it but I don't want to make her mad. I will probably wait until next week and ask again. i just don't know what's so hard about it- I'm just asking for a title change that fits my job anyways!

I also found out I am going to have to get another surgery. Apparently I have some scar tissue from when I had my D&C after my delivery for retained product. I've read that its common but it scares me to think maybe it will come back? Maybe I won't be able to have more kids? I'm pretty nervous about it. Plus I have to go under again and I really am just over having surgeries. I'm praying that this is the last one and that everything will be ok after this.

One last thing  -we got a new TV with our tax returns. I love it! And we are also waiting on our new sectional for the living room - found out today it won't be delivered until March 14th :( I'm not happy at all about it! We were told February. I will have to put pics of the new stuff up too soon!

6 mo Well Baby Visit

So yesterday was Tricia's 6 month appointment. She did well and they say she looks great. She is growing  like she should and doing everything she should at 6 months. I told him I started her on solids and he said that was fine. She has done ok on pretty much everything except bananas I believe. it was either the bananas or the carrots. Oh well, we will come back to those later. I still ahve some other foods to get her though. Mostly doing well on that.

She is still kind of sick. The doc still says he doens't see anythign that would indicate she needed antibiotics. So until then we just suction her nose out good and I am running a vick plug in at night. I need to get the humidifier out as well.

Ben started his new job yesterday. I miss him a ton. And it's rough being home alone already. It just sucks. But hopefully some good will come out of it.

I go back to work tomorrow after my leave from Grandma Evans passing away on 1/9. I was off last Weds, Thurs, Fri for the services. Weds was the calling hours and Fri was the funeral. I was really sad - I miss her a lot already. RIP Grandma Evans - you will be forever missed. <3

Christmas and New Years

Time has flown so fast! It seems like I was just in here yesterday writing. Well the baby still is coughing and sneezing. I've given up! The doc said it's allergies, the allergist said it's a cold. So she goes back on the 17th for her 6 month check up and so we will talk about it then again. It doesn't seem to bother her at all - never problems iwth her ears or a fever. So unless it gets to that point I'm just watching her and seeing what happens.

We have had a few milestones since the last writeup.

First Christmas - Such a fun time! She got so many gifts and so did we!!! It was crazy. My mom got me a dyson - I LOVE IT! She spoils us so bad. So needed for the baby though. We did have to travel around a lot for Christmas though but it was worth it to see everyone. Christmas Eve we went to Ben's aunt and uncles, this his grandparents, then his other grandpa's for the rest of the night. His mom and aunt/uncle/cousin were there as well. It was a good time. Christmas Day my family came over to our house and I cooked breakfast than we opened gifts. So many amazing gifts from everyone. We are truly blessed :) Baby did amazing with all the traveling and people holding her. I will come abck and post pics soon!

First New Years - Was wonderful. Baby went to sleep around 10 and then we just hung out with the family at Ben's grandpas. Right after the ball dropped we left - that's way too late for us to stay up now LOL!

First Solids - We have started to introduce solid foods. We only do it about once a day, but we are moving through the foods to make sure she is ok with everything. So far we have done green beans, peas, and carrots. They all seem to be doing good for now! Her first one was on Christmas Day though - so that was a fun milestone :)

We now also have a crazy rolling baby. She rolls everywhere and it's just crazy. But overall she is doing so wonderful! Can't wait to see her stats when we go to the doc on the 17th.

Ben is starting his new job on the 17th also. It's with my BIL - he will be doing drywall. I'm happy for him - he has been not happy for a while now at his job and is ready for a change. This should be good for him. Just a huge change and he has a lot to learn.

Well I think that's all that's new in our world right now. Ready for 2011 and all the fun we are hoping it brings with our little bug!

Sick baby

So last week the baby started to get sick. It was a lot of sneezing and coughing. This happened about a month ago and when we took her in the doc basically said unless she has a fever, pulling at her ears like they are bothering her or she is eating different then to just let it pass. There isn't much they can do for a baby who's that little. Well after a week of her being like this, I finally took her to the doc on Tuesday. After examining her closely they believe she has allergies. I just can't imagine how she has allergies at 5 1/2 months!!! So we now have a machine that is a nebulizer inhaler. It's got the little mask that you have to try and hold up to her mouth. She does ok with it but she moves around a lot so I am constantly moving the mask around with her face. I know she would freak if I tried to use the straps to put it on her so I will just do that for now. They also referred her to an allergist to see if he can give her anything for the congestion in her nose. I'm hoping so!! I have to call them today because they gave Dec. 30 as the first appt available for her but I just can't imagine going two more weeks with her like this. Hopefully the inhaler helps with the coughing. The hardest part is she is too little for the allergy test so it will be awhile before we know what she is allergic too. I just hope we can find something for her soon. Ben has a lot of allergies (environmental) so she definitely takes after him in that department!

I still can't believe Christmas is next weekend!! I'm pretty much done with shopping - just need to finish Ben's mom and then give his uncle some money for his grandpa's gift. I do have some wrapping to do and I'm making picture frames for Ben's Aunt/Uncle and Grandparents so I need to finish putting those together this weekend and wrap them. But I feel good about being pretty much done with everything!

Next week is going to be a quiet week at work! It always is because our field people aren't really doing too much work. Hopefully i find some things to keep me busy because it's going to be such a long week if not. It will be nice though - I only have to work Tues-Thurs! And same for the following week because of New Years! I love this time of year! I do need to post some pics of our Christmas Tree and I need to also come back and post our family pics (which turned out GREAT).

Pics Only!

Sorry they are out of order but here are some newer pics...

 Baptism Sept 2010

 See she doesn't like Ohio State....

 She loves her Michigan Stuff though :)

Our Thanksgiving Turkey!

This is me and Ben's cousin - our babies are only 10 days apart